#but i already skimmed ao3 n tumblr with no luck

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disappointed with the absence of any content for pee-wee herman and the escaped convict. how tf have ppl been sleeping on these guys smh

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Eternal Lilies (Shinji Hirako x Fem!Reader)

Fanfiction By: @rmorningstar21 

Fandom: Bleach

Pairing: Shinji Hirako x Fem!Reader

Cross-posted to Ao3 and Wattpad (older - I just want to be able to share this cute one with Tumblr as well.)  

Warnings: Soulmate AU (matching tattoos), Angst to Fluff.  Nothing really triggering.

AN:  This one was posted to my Ao3 on 10/14/2020, so this is honestly for those of you that prefer just to read on Tumblr.  If you guys want more of my Shinji on here (or any of the other characters - I have 46 shots currently in that collection, this one is just one of my favorites), let me know!  The full one-shot collection is under both Wattpad and Ao3 under my same username.

"Y/N, look!" Shinji said excitedly, moving to slip his Academy uniform open as his teeth shown in a huge grin.  As he pulled the fabric away, he exposed a beautiful lily pattern, vines weaving around the flowers.  The inner Kanji of the pattern read the word "eternal", and his brown eyes could not be any more excited.  "My soul mark appeared on my ribcage today.  I couldn't believe it." 

Y/e/c eyes studied the pattern, forcing your lips upwards as you glanced back into his excited brown eyes.  "It's really beautiful, Shinji," you murmured softly, allowing the lithe male to close his uniform once more.  The excitement on his face nearly made your heart soar, the best friend you had fallen in love with.  His next words, though, nearly broke you.  

"I hope it's a really cute girl, y'know," he said, nearly dreamily as his brown eyes glanced up at the sky.  "I wonder when I'll be able to meet her." 

"You know, Shinji," you said, forcing your voice to stay positive.  "You could already know her.  It's not like we see everyone's ribcages daily." 

"I dunno," he said with a shrug, moving to wrap his arm around your shoulder.  "I feel like if I had already, I would feel an instant connection with her.  I mean, that's what soul mates are, right?" 

"I suppose you're right," you forced a chuckle from your lips, though you shamefully relished in the warmth.  "I just wouldn't get your hopes up." 

"Oh, you're such a spoil sport, y'know," he teased, his toothy grin turning to a smirk as his brown eyes shifted down to you.  "Did you get your soul mark yet, Y/N?" 

"No," you replied with a soft laugh.  "I would be content never getting it.  Falling in love with someone over a mark sounds silly to me."  The lies slipped past your mouth so easily, though your heart tightened with each word that slipped past your lips.  Remembering his mark, remembering every detail of it, reminded you exactly of the mark you held upon your own ribcage.  To you, it was so beautiful, but through his excitement, you wished not to disappoint him.  

"I'm sure you'll change your mind," he said with an amused laugh.  

*** 

"I still haven't found my soulmate," Shinji whined as he rested his head upon your lap, his long blond locks askew as his brown eyes stared up at you.  "How about you, Y/N/N?" 

"Have you been running around the seireitei asking every cute girl to show you their soul mark?" You questioned with a quirked brow, your eyes narrowing upon your obnoxious best friend.  

"Well," he started, his teeth showing in a smirk as he laughed.  "You know me too well.  I'm just excited, y'know." 

You found yourself rolling your eyes, though you used a hand to move a lock of his long blond hair that laid askew upon his face.  "If you ever want to be a Captain, Shinji, you're going to have to learn to be more tactful," you replied in exasperation.  "I still think you're making too much of a deal out of it.  You'll find her when the time is right." 

"I didn't think I'd have to wait so long," he whined, his grimace still showing his teeth.  "You didn't answer me, Y/N/N! Did you find yours yet?" 

Allowing a sigh to escape your lips, your y/e/c eyes shifted to the sky.  "Yeah," you said in a low tone.  "It's not all it's cracked out to be." 

"You never even showed me your soul mark," he grumbled.  "You're so lucky." 

"I wouldn't call it luck," you said softly, absent-mindedly caressing his long blond locks between two of your fingers.  "I told you before, a mark doesn't make someone fall in love with you." 

*** 

"Why have I never seen you with your soul mate?" Shinji asked curiously, leaning against you, wearing his Captain's hatori as his toothy grimace showed against his face.  "You said you found yours, didn't you?" 

"I told you, a mark doesn't make someone fall in love with you," you replied with a roll of your eyes.  "He's not into me, Shinji.  You don't need to rub it in." 

"That's lame," he said with a sigh, moving to wrap an arm around your shoulder, pulling you close.  "Y'know, I haven't found mine, and yours sucks.  Maybe you were right." 

"Don't you have more important things to worry about, Captain?" You questioned with a quirked brow, your heart dropping further into your stomach as your words slipped past your lips.  

"It's totally important," he groaned out as he nearly toppled you over.  "Yours will come around eventually, and realize that he loves you for the cold pain in the ass you are." 

You rolled your eyes, your lips dropping into a frown as you could feel your heart tight in your chest.  "I'm sure," you replied, though you were completely disheartened, cold in those warm arms of his.  Desperately, you wished to cry, but you couldn't give him that.  You couldn't tell him, not after all this time. 

*** 

"Y/N/N," Shinji groaned out his chin length blunt cut tickling your face as he leaned against you.  "Now I'm sure I'll never find her.  Now that we're stuck here." 

"If you need a mark to fall in love with someone, do you really feel like that's love?" You said with a roll of your eyes, your y/e/c eyes fixated upon the book you had been skimming through.  "These stupid humans run around falling in love with each other naturally, and you're so hung up on a mark." 

"Hey, just because yours doesn't love you, doesn't mean you have to take it out on me," he snapped, moving himself off of you as his arms crossed over his chest.  

His words had been so cold, so painful, cutting right through your heart.  You could feel the welling of tears in your eyes as you tossed your book down, flash stepping away from him, as far as you possibly could.  In the Karakura forest, you finally allowed your guard to drop, tears built up over hundreds of years spilling from your y/e/c eyes.  

Slipping your jacket from your shoulders, your half shirt revealed just enough of your mark that you could reflect on it, dwell on it.  The lilies were so beautiful, but the word in the center had been such a lie in your mind.  Maybe a small part of you thought that he could fall in love with you without having to see the stupid mark that connected the two of you, or maybe you had just worried you would disappoint him. 

"You idiot," you murmured through your tears, moving to trace the mark upon your ribcage.  

"You never told me your mark was on your rib cage," Shinji said from behind you, moving to place a slender hand against your shoulder.  "May I see, Y/N/N?" 

Quickly moving your hand to cover it, teary y/e/c eyes shifted to meet his brown eyes.  "It doesn't change anything," you said with a sigh as you stood to your feet, moving your hand from your ribcage.   "A mark doesn't make someone fall in love, and I've told you that for so many years, Shinji." 

"When you said your soulmate didn't love you…" he whispered softly, his voice cracking as he moved a slender hand across your soul mark, "you meant me." 

"We've been by one another's side since before the marks," you said, your voice cracking through your tears.  "You never needed a mark to find me, and I never was enough for you." 

"Y'know, I never thought I was that lucky," he said finally, his toothy grin slipping across his lips as his brown eyes shifted up to your teary gaze.  Standing to his feet, he brought a slender hand to your cheek, wiping your tears away.  "I didn't know I really got to spend nearly my whole life with my soul mate." 

"Aren't you disappointed?" You questioned, sniffling still as you tried to quell your tears.   "You've been going on for years about how you were hoping it was some cute girl." 

"Am I disappointed the best friend I've loved for hundreds of years is my soul mate?" He snickered, moving to capture your lips.  

The kiss was like electricity flowing through your entire body, the connection of your lips like two halves meeting their whole.  Melding lips together, tasting something that was truly his own, you found yourself melting into the kiss.  Slender arms moved around your waist, pulling you flush against his chest.  

"I'm just disappointed that I didn't know sooner," he said, a toothy grin as the two of you separated.  "Maybe bein' surrounded by humans won't be so bad after all." 

"I've loved you for so long," you murmured finally, burying your head in his chest as you held him close.  

He chuckled softly, holding you as close as he possibly could.  "You have no idea how happy I am to hear that," he murmured softly as he separated from you just enough to capture your lips once more.